PMDD

Or Premenstrual Dysphoric  Disorder is a more sever term for PMS.  I am going to make an appointment with the doctor to discuss this possibility.  Anytime I am not on any form of birth control my symptoms become unbearable.  I totally with drawl, people start asking what my issue is and I just start feeling hopeless.  I don't want to do anything except lock myself in my room and cry and break things.  Aiden spends more time in his room and the dog spends more in his kennel.  I have no patience and I get mad at the dumbest reasons.  I really hate going through this and I had forgotten how bad it was.  Even Skip says the tones of my emails change and he gets pretty concerned.

The symptoms of PMDD can include any of the following:

• Mood swings     -  CHECK
• Depressed mood or feelings of hopelessness  -CHECK
• Marked anger, increased interpersonal conflicts -CHECK
• Tension and anxiety -CHECK
• Irritability-  CHECK
• Decreased interest in usual activities- CHECK
• Difficulty concentrating- DOUBLE CHECK
• Fatigue- CHECK...all I think about is nap time
• Change in appetite -   CHECK
• Feeling out of control or overwhelmed-  CHECK
• Sleep problems- CHECK....I haven't slept in 3 days
• Physical problems, such as bloating- CHECK..but not severe

It's typically treated with a)anti-depressants or b) birth control.   Neither of which I want to do.  And trying to find anything about natural treatments is proving to be pretty difficult.  Although there are times where I am feeling so bad I wouldn't mind snacking on some Zoloft just to try and control it.  

So I will go back to work tomorrow and curse and cry about every dog on my table.  I will be pissed to the point of having a shitty tone on the phone with people who want appointments and can't make up their minds and I will more than likely say something smart to the people who give me crap about not being able to get in this week.  I just want to lay down and give up for a week.